I am being treated with medication for depression but still at times feel
overwhelmed by feelings of worthlessness as well as feelings of anger and
hostility toward my husband. Is this all due to depression or is something
else going on?
I key in on your statement about feeling worthless. That is a feeling
worth examining. Where did it come from? It has a ring of self-hatred to it
which means that perhaps one issue you could examine would center around
whether or not you love yourself.
Love of self often gets confused with being self-centered. Nothing could
be further from the truth! If one loves oneself, there is no blindness to
faults and character defects. Nor is there harsh judgment. There is simply
hope that growth can continue and that the faults can be corrected.
Sometimes, too, when we do not love ourselves, it is because we have not
forgiven ourselves for some of our mistakes. This can give rise to feelings
of worthlessness and depression.
As far as your reaction to your husband, there may in fact be some
legitimate reasons why you are angry with him. It is also possible that any
anger you hold toward yourself gets directed at him.
You may want to find a counselor who can help you explore this spiritual
side of depression. Medication is a great help for the physical facets of
depression. You may want to complement that with some spiritually oriented
counselling which can help you examine such issues as love of self and
Richard B. Patterson is a clinical psychologist
in private practice in El Paso, TX. He is the author of three books on psychology